thinking about ex-husband!simon riley... but he's not really your ex husband. he meant his vows when he said them. it isn't that he stopped loving you, it's that ever since you put that ring on his finger he can't stop thinking about how much of a bastard his father was as a husband. can't stop living in fear that one day he'd wake up just like him since it's the only example of marriage he's had in his life. it's irrational - he knows it, you know it. but he feels like he's drowning every time he thinks about what should have been the happiest day of his life.
you eat breakfast together when he's not deployed. he drops you at work in the morning when your car's in the garage and kisses you softly goodbye. you fuck maybe more than you did before he asked for a divorce. you get your ring melted down and made into a pendant of his first initial - a tiny gold s that nests in the hollow of your throat.
now he's just simon riley the man you love not simon riley the husband. now he doesn't feel the weight of his father's invisible shadow looming over him every day.
now he just gets to love you without fear of becoming something he's not.
